You know how in loads of inspirational quotes there’s always “bad times make for thicker skin” or how bad experience made you a better person because you learned from it.

I think that’s bullshit.

Having people putting you down, humiliate you or just generally acting like you don’t exist is one of the the worst things to happen to a person. How should you ever learn from that? How is being picked on a valuable life lesson? It won’t make you more happy, it won’t give you fulfillment in life, it will not make you be able to do better. It will teach you that people are shit. It will show you that trusting someone will backfire. It’ll have an impact on your personality as well as the people surrounding you.

I believe you do NOT become a better person when people are harsh, rude or mean to you. It will NOT make you work harder and it will NOT enrich your life.

If you are a person that’s been through hell and back (and I like to add that hell has a different meaning to everyone) and you ARE grateful, I admire you. That’s the strongest you can be, really, but I don’t want that.

I don’t want to be strong. I want to be fine the way I am, the way I was. Saying it was all a life lesson is what people say to comfort you, but I wish I could only learn the nice ones. I wish to learn lessons like “Oh Italy was gorgeous!” or “Cream puffs really are the best” or “This restaurant has the greatest croissants ever”. I wish I didn’t have to learn things the hard way, I wish I wasn’t let down by false expectations or facades people put up.  I am not weak. I just want(ed) something else.